Hello 2022 - A Letter to Myself

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Disclaimer: This blog post is more journal entry style and hasn’t been edited *too* much, so it might be a bit choppy and have a few errors because: 

1). Remembering I’m not alone  - I created this space in the hope that my words would somehow be relatable or inspire others. I deeply believe that when we are transparent and raw, we surrender and put trust into what the Universe has planned for us, including who we connect with and how we connect with them. 

2) For now, this feels right - I have barely posted to this space because I obsess over the perfectionism of it and then allow myself to make excuses of why I’m too busy to share content, this is my first time having an official blog and I am accepting and appreciating that it won’t be perfect. For now, it’s a place to just be completely raw and unedited, authentically me.

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 Goodbye 2021, Hello 2022! 

If I’m being honest, 2021 was ~a lot~ of a year. I remember going into it with a laundry list of unattainable goals and extremely high expectations. As you can imagine, it didn’t go as planned. For most of the year, I was vibrating at a lower frequency that felt like I was surviving versus living. I ended up binging and emotionally eating a few more times than I planned. I was burnt out and felt that I couldn’t truly recover from feeling anxious or depressed. Overall, I felt I lost a bit of myself for most of the year. 

I know it sounds all bad but the thing is, it needed to happen because throughout the year I focused on shadow work, inner child healing, realigning with my dharma (purpose) and highest self, learning to love myself deeply through the ebbs and flows, and accepting where I was at in the current moment. For the first time since childhood, I ended 2021 feeling confident, grounded, joyful, secure, and truly at peace. 

Entering 2022, I’ve created realistic goals that seem attainable (including some fun bucket list item ones), I'm focusing on letting go of expectations of myself and others, and reprogramming my subconscious mind to believe in myself. I wouldn’t say that I’m going into this year with set resolutions but more so, being there and showing up for myself in every single way possible. 

If there is one thing I do want to prove to myself this year, it’s that “I can and I will”. For as long as I can remember, I’ve been a roadblock to my own dreams. I am a pro at self sabotaging myself because I’ve trained myself to believe that feeling in control and comfortable is better than the unknown. For January, I’ve made a commitment to myself to complete the following each day: 

  • Follow a lower carb + paleo diet 

  • Drink 80oz of water (incl. 1-2 cups of tea) 

  • No alcohol 

  • Close apple watch rings and/or 10K steps 

    • + 3 workouts per week 

  • One hour of passion/creative work 

Along with doing ideally all but at least 1-2 of these daily: meditation, prayer, sun salutations, visualizing, scripting, spending time outside, reading, breath work, gratitude, affirmations, tarot pull 

If I’m being honest this challenge and sharing this with whoever is reading this terrifies me. I have always been good at being extremely excited to start a challenge but never follow through. I am very much (or should say was very much) an all or nothing person. There have been so many times that I have fallen off the bandwagon, that somewhere along the way making excuses and self sabotaging became easier than believing in myself. 

That stops today. 

I am welcoming 2022 with an open heart and deep compassion and love for myself. I am making a commitment to myself to believe that no matter how big my dream (or goal) is I can achieve it if I want it enough. As long as I continue to appreciate the now, believe that I can, and surrender to the Universe’s guidance. 

Manifesting now that on January 31st, 2022 I will be writing another journal entry about how I made it to the end of my challenge because I believed in myself, set my boundaries, and made it happen. 

“Trust and belief are the main factors for achieving what we need and want in our life”.  - Buddha 

Thank you for reading my sweet friends, sending all the love and hugs your way. Here is your reminder, that what we believe, we can achieve, if we allow ourselves.